For days now I have been trying to answer my own simple question I gave to Nicole…if I could give younger 15 year old me a piece of advice what would it be? Well instead of straight up answering it in one sentence I am writing a blog on it because it really isn’t simple and I have done so many things that I think I would most definitely warn 15 year old me about.
1st piece of advice: Sex isn’t something you can give away and then claim back, it won’t make him love you…. Ah yes the age old problem of whether to sleep with your boyfriend before you are really ready because he might move on and find someone else…well fuck it who cares, tell that small dicked boy to move on and play just the tip elsewhere… at this age boys are a dime a dozen and none of them really want to settle down and neither should you…its fine to want a boyfriend but you don’t really grasp what a relationship entails at that age. It’s a little more than heavy petting and going to house parties, there are actual commitments and plans we make in relationships that our brains are too underdeveloped to understand at 15. I’m not advocating sex with strangers but I do think that waiting for the boy you’ve just let fondle your tiny tits to commit and be your boyfriend is just a waste of your time – chances are he’s not the one and you won’t still feel that extraordinary punch of butterflies in your stomach this time next year. Jacob will be Jacob who? Furthermore any boy that makes you feel like you have to give up your treasure to be on his arm is a douche bag and those boys still exist as men today in our world.
2nd Piece of advice : Pot will make you stooopid…you will find yourself sitting in front of a computer in your mid 30’s wildly trying to retrieve childhood memories and wondering where the fuck they all went and questioning if you even had any memories at all . lol.
3rd Piece of advice: Boy stuff again. If he doesn’t make you feel amazing, if he doesn’t treat you the way you feel you deserve to be treated and if he makes you insecure about yourself (other than your normal insecurities) then it’s time to cut that fucker loose. He doesn’t love you and he won’t love you and he won’t change. He might tell you he really cares for you and that he just has trouble expressing his feelings – he’s lying or he’s emotionally stunted – either way you don’t need a broken guy who won’t try fix himself. If he strings you along like a puppet and you don’t know which way is up or down – then throw his ass in front of a bus (not literally please)
4th Piece of advice: Stay in school . Yep I can’t believe I am saying it either but there you go. Education really is important; it keeps you off the streets, buys you time to decide what you want to do before you have to get a job and keeps the responsibilities at bay. I left school early and my options were stay in school or get a job. I wish I had stayed in school, there’s not a lot of fantastic work opportunities for a know it all teenager and it’s taken a lot of working my ass off since to get to where I want to be and I am still not there.
So I could go on and on about all the shit I shouldn’t have done and all the things I wish I could change but I don’t have the DeLorean and I probably wouldn’t be the fantastic unglued wench I am today without all those off road experiences.